Said no one… ever.

Especially me.

Long story short – the risk I took in late September to switch careers to a start up came back and bit me in the ass today. I had a sinking feeling that my company wasn’t doing well. I didn’t think that layoffs were possible because winter quarter had gone so well. But the bonuses stopped coming and the expenses kept piling on, and workloads got emptier. So someone had to go. Since I was the semi-PR girl that had the least amount of actual PR experience… I got the ax.

Am I upset? Sure. I join the the writhing masses clamoring for every job post on Craigslist. The future of my dance career and family expansion will ultimately be put on hold until I can find something more stable. (Luckily all of my Showcase items for May are mostly paid for.) The hubs and I may have to reschedule our vacation in May because no employer is going to give me that kind of time off right off the bat. I had to bail on my competition this weekend because I couldn’t afford the travel expenses right now. And don’t even get me started on what the hell I’m going to have to do for medical, especially since I paid that GIANT deductible at the beginning of the year.

But honestly? I’m relieved. I’m not up for the PR lifestyle at all. I didn’t like who I was becoming. The stress case who worried about clients 24/7 and the mindset that my day didn’t end when I left the office. I’ll miss the flexibility and the other benefits the company presented. But I definitely missed event planning while I was away from it for 8 months.

My plans now? I got a decent severance and applied for unemployment. I still have my hubby’s medical as a backup even though it costs an arm and a leg. I’ve got people helping me out as well.

Keep me in your thoughts. Thanks!