May DSMA Blog Carnival: My Own Worst Critic

When it comes to diabetes, whether you’re the PWD or the caregiver, I can guarantee you that you are STRONG.  After all, you deal with this disease every day!  And I think most of us don’t always give ourselves the credit we deserve, although we may be quick to point out when we aren’t so strong.  With that in mind, it’s time to give ourselves credit for our strengths.  And also to share the things we may not be so great at.  This month, we want you to tell us:

What do you consider to be your Diabetes Strengths?  What do you think are your Diabetes Weaknesses? 

Well, it’s nearly the end of May, but this still counts. May was kind of nuts, and I honestly had no idea these prompts existed until some of my fellow bloggers ALSO procrastinated posted using this prompt today.

I’m a dancer with a chronic illness – so naturally, I don’t think I do anything right. Especially since I’ve been trying for the last 6-8 months to get my A1C under 6.0% and master adequate ballroom and swing technique. Neither have come easy. In fact, the two walk hand in hand. My quest for the perfect blood sugars often sends me out of my classes and lessons because my dosing is all wrong, or the meal wasn’t as much as I thought, or… or… or…

I’m the most impatient person in the world when it comes to this type of stuff. I want to dance like my instructors as much as I want to stop radically spiking after meals. So I increase my insulin intake and exercise like crazy, overloading my brain and blood stream because I just want to be better, but I could actually just be making myself worse. Skipping class because your sugars drop to 59 for the third time in the same day doesn’t make you a very productive student. Both require management and practice and trial and error. But I want it all now, damnit.

I also really like chocolate. And pizza. And sushi. My insulin pump does not.

On the flip side – I’m a very active T1 and can’t seem to function without some sort of physical activity in my day. Except for maybe when I’m sick or something. Although – I have tried dancing while ill… and I usually just get sent home. (It’s the thought that counts, right?) I’m also an insulin pump user involved in a hobby that can be very cosmetic and superficial. Sometimes being attached to a wired device is really inconvenient in this community. It breaks lines, it gets tangled in straps, and it leaves strange nubs in spandex costumes. But I trudge along anyway and am thankful I found a small community and an instructor that really just don’t care if I’m battery powered.

This post is my May entry in the DSMA Blog Carnival.  If you’d like to participate too, you can get all of the information at http://diabetessocmed.com/2013/may-dsma-blog-carnival-3/

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5 thoughts on “May DSMA Blog Carnival: My Own Worst Critic

  1. Kelley says:

    Aw, what is your A1C normally? I’m just trying to get my below 7, I couldn’t imagine trying to get mine under 6, what an awesome goal to have :). That’s great you are able to do something active everyday…I took ballroom dance classes before my wedding and they were so fun, if only I could convince my hubby to do it with me after the wedding 😛

    • seejendance says:

      Yeah, below 6 is my doctor’s ideal for pregnancy. I’m currently sitting at 6.1 with a lot of lows. It’s not horrible… But I get the stink eye every time I mention that my hubs and I are trying without being “perfect.”

      • Kelley says:

        Yikes…my hubby and I are trying to get pregnant too (although not until next year since I can’t even get below 7) I always thought around 6.5 was good for pregnancy, under 6 seems so impossible, but if you are at 6.1 you are almost there!

  2. Karen says:

    Being very active is such a great strength – I recently had a discussion with my endo about how I need to remember it’s better to exercise and have some out of range numbers than to sit on the couch all day but have perfect blood sugars. It’s tough to remember that though.

    Oh, and my husband and I used to take ballroom lessons – so much fun!!! I spent more than my fair share of time on the side watching him dance with our instructor while I drank a juice box for a low though. And my husband could usually spot a low before I felt it, just by the way I was following (or not following, probably) his lead.

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